i'm the same as i was when i was six years old.

tonight is club night. now we're just sitting around watching friends. 

we got pedicures which i never do. the chair i sat in was giving me an ass massage.

i don't get people who don't like friends, it's so fucking funny. i love it.

i made my doctors & dentist appointments today which was legit, talked to my grandma 

which was long overdue told her i'd see her on saturday she was cool.

i deleted the message my cousin sent me via facebook last night, it was passive aggressive, a guilt trip in a paragraph.

 

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:39pm

sorry i know, 
it's at my grandma's and i didn't take it to danielle's house or dorm, where i was last week& where i am now (her dorm) my cousin preditta, justlike everybody in my familyis facebook stalking the shit outta me hence the message, and i have nophone. 
i talked to my dad last night and he lost his ATM card, and their mailing him a new one to the credit union in boston, so i'll prolly have to pick that up when he tells me. he's still NOT talking to my mom. and preditta messaged me sayng i need to get all my clothes from my grandma's house ASAP, just MADD shitt about me like being "above" this BLAH BLAH BLAH, my aunt invited me to easter dinner & i didn't go because it was gonna be like ME vs. my entire family like why would i do that to myself.

ugghhh.FML.
stfu and take the compliment bitch your hair looks 
great in your default.

miss you.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:44pm

wowww. WHY DONT YOU DELETE THEM FROM YOUR FBOOK? shit. so what did u do for easter? i totally feel you i wouldnt have went either . so your staying wit danielle right now?

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:48pm

yeah i'm in wilkes-barre, PA right now, at danielle's dorm.
watching the breakfast club.
yeahh i know but that would cause soo much fucking drama.
idk. i will.
yeah but then i'll be back at my grandma's but like the way it sounds like my family doesn't want me over there.
like i've been fucking ostracized.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:50pm

sighh. im sorry yo. theyll get the fuck over it tho. they need to realize that your grown. shit. that shit makes me so mad. damn ru in philli?

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:56pm

no i'm an hour and forty minutes outside of philly. hahaha.
yeah i know i'm soo overthe drama that's why.
like i'm not trying have negative, depressive shit in my life now.
like i left my house to be happy.
my father supports me, and that's all i care about.
fuck them i'm gonna do me. i know what i want and i know how to survive.

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:56pm

YOU GO GLEN CO CO !

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:56pm

LMFAO!!!AKJFDLAKJFLAKJF;L

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:57pm

lmaoooooo. ps. i just peeped ur subject. and NO hes all mine THANKS. you can have drake. hes all washed up and mainstream now anyway LOL

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:59pm

i know i'm over it.
hahahahaha.
i'm good.

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:59pm

i'd still fuck him though.

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 11:03pm

heyyy that kid ummm scooter. 
does he have a child.
oooohh and you know that nigga durrell i told you about with the tattoos he has a facebook.
i just friended that kid.
he's a faggot i hate him.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 11:09pm

hahahah oh shittt! idk i think scoot might have a kid im not sure why

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 11:10pm

well i met this pregnant spanish chick who was talkin about this kidscotter who live in mattapan like on blue hill, smokes madd weed, is a fiend , has a kid, and looks like a turtle and knows mad people. 
i waslike i think i know that person. 
hahahaha.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 11:11pm

ahahahahahhahahaha. i think he does.

so yeah that was my conversation.

tonight we're taking these lifted pills.

their legal. spose to give you waves of relaxation& euphoria. idk we'llsee. 

i wanted to get the salvia but the chick at 

the register tweaked danielle out.

seinfeld just came on.

we just smoked some bongs.

last night i was thinking about how i want to make it to the top. what 's the plan.

and i know i'm gonna write.

i 'm gonna write my story, and it's gonna make me millions.

i know it will.

brittany. it'll be 100% true and raw, real. 

it has everything sex, love, heartbreak, drama, family bullshit, drugs, music, society. 

it'll just take you in and at this time i think it's something people would want to see. 

the people will be real, but i would change their names. 

i'm gonna sell the world my life. my story. it's gonna be fucking great, but it might ruin me, destroy me. but i think it'll give me everything i've ever wanted. 

why would people want to hear my story because it'll fucking sell. they'll wanna hear because my life is that fucking crazy. in push the main character starts off saying where should i start from now this moment on, or the beginning.

i have to start mine from the beginning, i mean maybe not my birth but from the age of about 9 to now. i have no ending because my story isn't over.

i put my life on these words: this story will make or break me. 

but i know it'll make me.

danielle says it'll be on some juno shit.

we'll see.

i'm gonna be on some brittany shit.

loves it!

i think that's why i admire drake so much, he speaks the truth and he's coming up for his hard work& just his raw talent & people seeing that the shit he was saying was real. like forget wheelchair jimmy, he got people to see through that. at least that's how i feel. 

i know that when i walk into a room and start meeting people, talking to them they rarely forget me. i'm unforgettable & want to tell the world who i am, i want them to read my story, then see my story. it'll be in script form i think. because i want it to be a movie. it's to great to not be put on film. it will not be butchered it will me ang lee beautiful. american beauty dramatic. juno funny. from there i want to focus on the comic strip, develop, and produce that idea with the help of jointgirl (lily), budgirl (jacque), budman (anthony), and nugget (myself). that's my plan. i'm gonna definitely be utilizing facebook& ohnotheydidn't to send the story around. i'll split it into parts& see what the people think. if they'll even read it. hopefully they'll read. they'll love it. they'll hate it & tell their friends, and maybe they'll love it, then maybe i'll go from there. god this blog is long. sorry, alright i'm off.

tattoos:

stubborn beauty

so much beauty in dirt

peace.paz.paix.shalom.

yndi halda.

dr.seuss sleeve.

nautical stars.

may peace prevail on earth. 

Ughh 
I’m just so far gone 
October’s own 
Please leave me alone 
Drunk off champagne 
Screaming in the phone 
See my house is not a home 
Fuck is going on 
Where did we go wrong 
Where do we belong 
Caught up in the game 
And its one I can’t post pone 
Meaning if it rains 
I’m the one its raining on 
With my diamond chain’s on 
Still nothing setting stone 
Women borrow sweaters 
That I spray with my cologne 
And tell me don’t forget them 
And I promise that I won’t 
Feeling so distant from everyone I’ve known 
To make everybody happy 
I think I would need a clone 
Places we get flown 
Parties that we’ve thrown 
I done more for this city 
Than these rappers that have blown 
Its only been 3 years 
Look at how I’ve grown 
I’m just in my zone 
I call this shit the calm 
Yeah 
But I’m the furthest thing from calm 
Dedicated to my mom 
And I swear my word is bond 
Everything will be okay 
And it wont even take that long 
You can see it in my face 
Even read it on my palm 
Leader of the new school 
Its proven and its known 
I’m sittin’ in a chair 
But in the future, it’s a throne 
I know you like to worry 
It’d be better if you don’t 
Cuz…. 

 
You know… 
Everything gone be all right 
I promise 
I apologize to you know 
Put y’all in this position 
40 Mama always say 
Don’t ask permission, just ask forgiveness you know 
So uhh 
Forgive me 
Yeah 

virginia tech two years ago today. rip & i'm sorry for every person that was affected by the events carried out that day.

Im the same as I was when I was 6 years old
And oh my God I feel so damn old
I dont really feel anything
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my god, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything? 
Oh my god, Ive gotta gotta gotta gotta move on
Where do you move when what youre moving from
Is yourself? 
The universe works on a math equation
That never even ever really even is any end
Infinity spirals out creation
Were on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We aint sure where you stand
You aint machines and you aint land
And the plants and the animals, they are linked
And the plants and the animals eat each other
Oh my God and oh my cat
I told my dad what I need
Well I dont want to have and want
But I dont know what I need
Well, he said he said he said he said
Where were going Im dead.

schweppes ginger ale definitely not as good as canada dry. says brittany hendricks.

 

 

i'm in wilkesbury, pa right now with danielle at her school, sitting here on the computer

about to smoke a blunt in bobby's honor. 

tomorrow we're gonna go to some hyphie club, so that should be good.

i have my fake id so we'll be good to go.

finally got someone to buy my guitar even though i really don't want to sell it i honestly, 

have no choice.

i almost talked to my dad today, he has danielle's number so hopefully he'll call back.

if not i'll call him again tomorrow. i miss him, alot. he's the only person i have.

listening to m83 right now, which is making me smile.

i've been thinking alot about how happy i've been since i've left my house.

and i knwo i'm happier because i'm free, even though practically the whole time i've been gone i've been pretty broke. but i'm not gonna let the fact that i'm broke depress me, my day it's not worth it.

it's not worth it to upset myself or anyone else with it, everything WILL workout. i just have to be a whole other level of strong at this point.

drake is gonna be in NY on the 17&18th i think, i know def. the 18th and i will def. be there to see him. 

IT HAS TO BE DONE.

this maserati song reminds me of friday night lights for some reason.

oooohhh and around 7 we're going to see adventureland so i'm pretty pumped for that.

things to do:

wait for callback.

email KSM staffing again.

wait for background check/CORI to go through.

tattoo.

figuring out school in the summer&september.

wait for dad to callback.

when i get back to boston things i must deal with:

gammy.

the family!

mail at 112.

school.school.school.

work.work.work.

oh & btw we found the apartment, it's a 2 bedroom condo across from carney hospital like,

two seconds away from ashmont. newly renovated, walk in closets. probably gonna be from 1100-1400/month.

i've been wishing&hoping for a love.

i just want that one boy.

after this my lungs will be so fucked up.

so we've decided on the colors for each character in the strip.

this is going to be huge.

there's about to be a bud chronicles revolutions.

toys, movies, books, cereal, the whole nine.

it's gonna be that big.

as promised i'm posting the playlist at the end of the blog.

so the job i initially thought was a scam isn't i've checked the background information

and i'm almost 100% sure it's legit.

so i'm a housekeeper.

three times a week. mwf 2-5.

$350.00/wk.

i'm pretty happy.

hopefully the air won't be let out of my balloon of hope and tell me umm no B.

it's a scam.

but it's not.

i'm sending this money to enterprise car rental.

and a little over 350 is mine as an advance for my first week of work.

with that money, i'm in apartment shape.

danielle just called me, we're going to pick her up tomorrow. 

should be good. i'm excited,  just saw that i missed a call from danielle's mom.

she's gonna call me back she said she spoke to my mom for a while last night. 

so i'll hear about that in a bit... should be interesting.

as promised below is the SUPER playlist.

the kids are still awake, after two and a half hours of little kid time 

i'm very ready for BIG kid time. 

so if i come to find that this thing is not a scam and things actually work out in my benefit 

i'm getting that fucking tattoo.

period.

pitter patter playlist.

another day-the album leaf

eastern glow-the album leaf

in between lines-the album leaf

thermostat-aloha

fpr sure-american football

i'll see you when we're both not so emotional-american football

honestly?- american football

you know i should be leaving-american football

but the regrets are killing me-american football

stay home-american football

the one with the wurlitzer-american football

happiness-built to spill

broken chairs-built to spill

ontario plates-do make say think

loft-caspian

anything for now- do make say think

bears see things pretty much the way they are- don caballero

in the absence of strong evidence to the contrary, one may step out of the way of the charging bull- don caballero

look into the air-explosions in the sky

a song for our fathers-explosions in the sky

Stoli On The Rocks-Ghosts And Vodka

Screaming at anything that moved-Gifts From Enola

The Trapeze Swinger-Iron And Wine

Love And Some Verses-Iron and Wine

Each Coming Night-Iron And Wine

Peace Beneath the City-Iron and Wine

What If We Are Not After All,-Joan Of Arc

Fingerpicking-Joan Of Arc

So Open; Hooray!-Joan Of Arc

Farewell / Goodbye-M83

Teen Angst-M83

Anything/Selling that Thing-Make Believe

Kalinichta-Maserati

Cities-Maserati

And Still It Sits-Mice Parade

Refrain Tomorrow-Mice Parade

Galileo-Mice Parade

i felt your shape-the microphones

Heavy Eyes-The Microphones

Stanley Kubrick-Mogwai

Sometimes-My Bloody Valentine

Blown A Wish-My Bloody Valentine

Feed Me With Your Kiss-My Bloody Valentine

Peppermint Patty - Owls

I Want The Blindingly Cute To Confide In Me-Owls

Grow Old With Me-The Postal Service

Ocean-Sebadoh

open bay-sharks keep moving

From California To Houston, On Lightspeed-Six Parts Seven

A Three-Legged Workhorse-This Will Destroy You

Quiet-This Will Destroy You

The World is Our _____-This Will Destroy You

We Flood Empty Lakes-Yndi Halda

i get high with a little help from my friends.

i wish this thing had a last.fm scrobbler so you could see what i'm listening too.

and no it not usually the line i put in the title.

today's picture post was a bit different.

but those pictures can make any frown turn upside down.

watching blue's clues right now.

i fucking love that show.

steve is the shit.

i hate that new guy, so i only let my cousin watching old blue's clues episodes.

things to do:

schoolwork.

DOCTORS!

shownauter!

get dressed!

catering JOB!

money!!!!

license!

that's where my priorities 

MAIL TIME ON BLUES CLUES.

so i've been sick for the past three days.

it was at it's worst yesterday for about 20 hours. 

then today was alright.

i threw up twice.

yesterday i threw up like seven or eight times.

can't keep anything down.

today i threw up have the cheese pizza that i tried to eat last night 

when i thought i felt a little better.

lnugs just hit me up.

budgirl has the day off.

the crew is chillin today.

so i'm gonna have to shower.

and get dressed.

eeeeiiiioooouu.

i dunno what that was.

oh and here's an update on the comic strip: 

we have now done the first animations of budgirl, and budman.

i'll scan them on here when we've got the final product.

in high school my friend nickle b and i came up with a name for all our friends: the butt brigade.

because we ALL smoked butts like it was out jobs.

hahah today on blues clues instead of a thinking chair they had a rock chair.

it was a special nature themed episode.

cute.

next post i'll make a playlist.

look forward to it.

you're the icing on the cake on the table at my wake.

today is april 3rd.

i have to do homework.

i have class at 6.

until 9.

i'm going.

things to do:

call rochelle

job!

apartment!

homework!!!

blunts.

okay so homework is the priority, school is the priority.

wtf i love school, i love umass boston.

my classes are the shit.

my professors are even better.

minus philosophy class.

which reminds me DOCTORS APPT.

& my mom says that i have to make a dentist appointment. 

ughh.

my life is  a mess.

i wonder what the whether will be like this weekend.

right now it's 51.

the 10 day weather forecast says it's gonna be like this.

gloomy, sometimes kinda sunny, 50s, high 40s. rainy.

may 2 is in 30 days.

i'm happy about my laptop.

basically just for the music.

movies to see:

adventureland.

i love you, man.

fast & furious. (yeah, i'm a faggot)

so i'm officially BROKE.

my dad sent me 100.00 bucks three or four days ago.

given i "lent" 20.00 to my grandma the day before yesterday.

other than that. i'm broke.

i'm spose to be doing some yardwork this weekend for lola.

that should hold me over for a bit.

so jointgirl, budgirl, budman, and nugget is a graphic novel 

that me and three of my friends are starting to create.

every situation is our depictions of situations we all go through everyday,

while roasting, during roasting, and after roasting.

the star of the strip is budgirl. 

everything is based off this character.

which was first created for jointgirl and nugget to laugh

and poke fun at budgirl & her budmobile.

the idea just kept getting bigger and bigger.

first was budgirl then the budmobile, then joint girl, nugget, and

budman.

budgirl is the greatest superhero that ever existed, 

she fight criminals by emitting budrays which puts 

her enemies is a state of euphoria, clarity, and self-reflection & criticism

(in a hilarious way of course.) and realize that what they're doing is wrong.

budgirl wins.

oh and bud girl has a belt like batman, only is has 420 different types of nugget,

rolling papers, blunt wraps, pipes, every marijuana accessory you could think of. 

then end.

gotta do homework.

and budgirl's on her way.

i'm so uptown, so if you ain't mothafuckah don't go uptown.

so i'm sort of officially moved out of my house.

i'm pretty happy.

and sad. just a mix of everything.

it was definitely time. 

right now i'm at my grandma's.

i mean it's temporary but it still sucks.

she's bitching about the bags, and i'm just trying

gaby met nate, dan, and serena today.

jealous.

haha.

ohwadupimgaby (1:52:22 AM): did i tell you i met nate and serena and dan today

eFFiNxDoRk (1:52:29 AM): oh my gee

eFFiNxDoRk (1:52:30 AM): really

eFFiNxDoRk (1:52:33 AM): how was it

ohwadupimgaby (1:52:41 AM): serena is sooo nice

ohwadupimgaby (1:52:47 AM): her and dan were holding hands lol

ohwadupimgaby (1:52:55 AM): and nate is so pretty

ohwadupimgaby (1:52:59 AM): like really good looking

eFFiNxDoRk (1:53:05 AM): aww

so many every post has a conversation i have with her.

she has a blog on here i think.

i don't know.

i'm on someone else's unsecured.

ughh.

things to do:

shia labeouf.

hahaha.

true.

ummm.

okay back to my current reality:

boxes

job

apartment

guitar

college

schoolwork

image.

writing!!!

save MONEY!

i'm off.

p.s.

i found the underground boy's hat today in a closet in my grandma's apartment.

it made me sad. 

and happy.