dearest, - though you're the nearest to my heart please don't ever, ever say we'll part.

i thought all those girls were fuckin fierce. so dunkies called i got the job, i have to be there tomorrow at 9:00 am to fill out paperwork. yay for me! full time job.

money in the fuckin bank. i'm pumped, so now i can definitely get that tattoo tomorrow, with the money my dad sends me. everything is slowly, but surely coming together my friends.

sure it's not much, but it's a start and you have to start somewhere. i'm pretty happy right now.

i could smoke a blunt. 

yummmyyyy. blunts. 

that sounds delicious right now. budgirl get's out of class early today and tomorrow is payday for her and gaylord. sooo all three of us will be pretty stacked.

the plan is coming together. 

i need to make another list though, and continue writing. i want to be done with the rough draft by the end the summer. the only other thing i want to be doing other than working and saving money, is writing that book. and pushing the nuggets with budgirl.

we've decided that we need to buy a safe, i agree. once i get the apartment with danielle we'll be good to go with a place to put it. i should prolly not talk to much about that on here. 

speaking of danielle she's home, i called her last night around 10 when i got in but there was no answer. i'll hit her up today, hopefully we'll chill. 

i need to get out of here. my grandma's house that is. she's going to honduras in july, but i honestly want to be out of her WAY before that. the family is getting more and more hostile by the day, and i just don't know how much longer i can deal with it. 

i miss my dad alot, i don't know when he plans to be back in boston, but i honestly think NO time soon. it's ok, i'll be stronger in the end for going through this. that's what i have to remind myself.

it'll all be worth it in the end when i'm sitting out on my seemingly endless piece of land smoking a blunt, with my book finished, and a movie in the works.

that's what i want. 

that's what i'll have.

i have a dentist&doctor's appointment this month. i don't know when i know it's like the third week of may i think. can't forget that. 

chris brown is having a low key party for his birthday next tuesday says ONTD. his life must really suck now, but hey that's on him.

the kiddies are watching elmo's world, you should see this they're going crazy.

i'm telling you if this shit that's on tv now is doing well then i know the chronicles of budgirl & company will make millions.

here's a verse from my boy to start you day.

i like a long haired thick red bun 
open up her legs then filet mignon that pussy 
ima get in and on that pussy 
if she let me in ima own that pussy 
gon throw it back and bust it open like you posed to 
girl I got that dope dick 
now come here let me dope you 
you gon be a dope fiend 
your friends should call you dopey 
tell em keep my name out they mouth if they dont know me 

things to do:

save $$!!

tattoo!!

buy safe!

buy cardboard boxes!!!

leave grandma's!!!

get hair done!

figure out school situation in september!!!

i'm off to shower.

i'm the same as i was when i was six years old.

tonight is club night. now we're just sitting around watching friends. 

we got pedicures which i never do. the chair i sat in was giving me an ass massage.

i don't get people who don't like friends, it's so fucking funny. i love it.

i made my doctors & dentist appointments today which was legit, talked to my grandma 

which was long overdue told her i'd see her on saturday she was cool.

i deleted the message my cousin sent me via facebook last night, it was passive aggressive, a guilt trip in a paragraph.

 

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:39pm

sorry i know, 
it's at my grandma's and i didn't take it to danielle's house or dorm, where i was last week& where i am now (her dorm) my cousin preditta, justlike everybody in my familyis facebook stalking the shit outta me hence the message, and i have nophone. 
i talked to my dad last night and he lost his ATM card, and their mailing him a new one to the credit union in boston, so i'll prolly have to pick that up when he tells me. he's still NOT talking to my mom. and preditta messaged me sayng i need to get all my clothes from my grandma's house ASAP, just MADD shitt about me like being "above" this BLAH BLAH BLAH, my aunt invited me to easter dinner & i didn't go because it was gonna be like ME vs. my entire family like why would i do that to myself.

ugghhh.FML.
stfu and take the compliment bitch your hair looks 
great in your default.

miss you.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:44pm

wowww. WHY DONT YOU DELETE THEM FROM YOUR FBOOK? shit. so what did u do for easter? i totally feel you i wouldnt have went either . so your staying wit danielle right now?

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:48pm

yeah i'm in wilkes-barre, PA right now, at danielle's dorm.
watching the breakfast club.
yeahh i know but that would cause soo much fucking drama.
idk. i will.
yeah but then i'll be back at my grandma's but like the way it sounds like my family doesn't want me over there.
like i've been fucking ostracized.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:50pm

sighh. im sorry yo. theyll get the fuck over it tho. they need to realize that your grown. shit. that shit makes me so mad. damn ru in philli?

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:56pm

no i'm an hour and forty minutes outside of philly. hahaha.
yeah i know i'm soo overthe drama that's why.
like i'm not trying have negative, depressive shit in my life now.
like i left my house to be happy.
my father supports me, and that's all i care about.
fuck them i'm gonna do me. i know what i want and i know how to survive.

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:56pm

YOU GO GLEN CO CO !

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:56pm

LMFAO!!!AKJFDLAKJFLAKJF;L

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 10:57pm

lmaoooooo. ps. i just peeped ur subject. and NO hes all mine THANKS. you can have drake. hes all washed up and mainstream now anyway LOL

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:59pm

i know i'm over it.
hahahahaha.
i'm good.

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 10:59pm

i'd still fuck him though.

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 11:03pm

heyyy that kid ummm scooter. 
does he have a child.
oooohh and you know that nigga durrell i told you about with the tattoos he has a facebook.
i just friended that kid.
he's a faggot i hate him.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 11:09pm

hahahah oh shittt! idk i think scoot might have a kid im not sure why

 

Brittany Hendricks

April 15 at 11:10pm

well i met this pregnant spanish chick who was talkin about this kidscotter who live in mattapan like on blue hill, smokes madd weed, is a fiend , has a kid, and looks like a turtle and knows mad people. 
i waslike i think i know that person. 
hahahaha.

 

Gabriela Colonette

April 15 at 11:11pm

ahahahahahhahahaha. i think he does.

so yeah that was my conversation.

tonight we're taking these lifted pills.

their legal. spose to give you waves of relaxation& euphoria. idk we'llsee. 

i wanted to get the salvia but the chick at 

the register tweaked danielle out.

seinfeld just came on.

we just smoked some bongs.

last night i was thinking about how i want to make it to the top. what 's the plan.

and i know i'm gonna write.

i 'm gonna write my story, and it's gonna make me millions.

i know it will.

brittany. it'll be 100% true and raw, real. 

it has everything sex, love, heartbreak, drama, family bullshit, drugs, music, society. 

it'll just take you in and at this time i think it's something people would want to see. 

the people will be real, but i would change their names. 

i'm gonna sell the world my life. my story. it's gonna be fucking great, but it might ruin me, destroy me. but i think it'll give me everything i've ever wanted. 

why would people want to hear my story because it'll fucking sell. they'll wanna hear because my life is that fucking crazy. in push the main character starts off saying where should i start from now this moment on, or the beginning.

i have to start mine from the beginning, i mean maybe not my birth but from the age of about 9 to now. i have no ending because my story isn't over.

i put my life on these words: this story will make or break me. 

but i know it'll make me.

danielle says it'll be on some juno shit.

we'll see.

i'm gonna be on some brittany shit.

loves it!

i think that's why i admire drake so much, he speaks the truth and he's coming up for his hard work& just his raw talent & people seeing that the shit he was saying was real. like forget wheelchair jimmy, he got people to see through that. at least that's how i feel. 

i know that when i walk into a room and start meeting people, talking to them they rarely forget me. i'm unforgettable & want to tell the world who i am, i want them to read my story, then see my story. it'll be in script form i think. because i want it to be a movie. it's to great to not be put on film. it will not be butchered it will me ang lee beautiful. american beauty dramatic. juno funny. from there i want to focus on the comic strip, develop, and produce that idea with the help of jointgirl (lily), budgirl (jacque), budman (anthony), and nugget (myself). that's my plan. i'm gonna definitely be utilizing facebook& ohnotheydidn't to send the story around. i'll split it into parts& see what the people think. if they'll even read it. hopefully they'll read. they'll love it. they'll hate it & tell their friends, and maybe they'll love it, then maybe i'll go from there. god this blog is long. sorry, alright i'm off.

tattoos:

stubborn beauty

so much beauty in dirt

peace.paz.paix.shalom.

yndi halda.

dr.seuss sleeve.

nautical stars.

may peace prevail on earth. 

Ughh 
I’m just so far gone 
October’s own 
Please leave me alone 
Drunk off champagne 
Screaming in the phone 
See my house is not a home 
Fuck is going on 
Where did we go wrong 
Where do we belong 
Caught up in the game 
And its one I can’t post pone 
Meaning if it rains 
I’m the one its raining on 
With my diamond chain’s on 
Still nothing setting stone 
Women borrow sweaters 
That I spray with my cologne 
And tell me don’t forget them 
And I promise that I won’t 
Feeling so distant from everyone I’ve known 
To make everybody happy 
I think I would need a clone 
Places we get flown 
Parties that we’ve thrown 
I done more for this city 
Than these rappers that have blown 
Its only been 3 years 
Look at how I’ve grown 
I’m just in my zone 
I call this shit the calm 
Yeah 
But I’m the furthest thing from calm 
Dedicated to my mom 
And I swear my word is bond 
Everything will be okay 
And it wont even take that long 
You can see it in my face 
Even read it on my palm 
Leader of the new school 
Its proven and its known 
I’m sittin’ in a chair 
But in the future, it’s a throne 
I know you like to worry 
It’d be better if you don’t 
Cuz…. 

 
You know… 
Everything gone be all right 
I promise 
I apologize to you know 
Put y’all in this position 
40 Mama always say 
Don’t ask permission, just ask forgiveness you know 
So uhh 
Forgive me 
Yeah 

virginia tech two years ago today. rip & i'm sorry for every person that was affected by the events carried out that day.

Im the same as I was when I was 6 years old
And oh my God I feel so damn old
I dont really feel anything
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my god, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything? 
Oh my god, Ive gotta gotta gotta gotta move on
Where do you move when what youre moving from
Is yourself? 
The universe works on a math equation
That never even ever really even is any end
Infinity spirals out creation
Were on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We aint sure where you stand
You aint machines and you aint land
And the plants and the animals, they are linked
And the plants and the animals eat each other
Oh my God and oh my cat
I told my dad what I need
Well I dont want to have and want
But I dont know what I need
Well, he said he said he said he said
Where were going Im dead.

schweppes ginger ale definitely not as good as canada dry. says brittany hendricks.