i will come to you and tell you of your many charms

i've been thinking alot, alot about the book/script and how i'm gonna tell my story. it'll start with pieces of my last year at the mather, wow the mather seems like yesterday honestly i still remember so many kids from that school. there were definitely many characters there.  anyway, then of course leaving mather elementary school in dorchester, massachusetts to go to loker elementary school in wayland, massachusetts. first off where the fuck is wayland, massachusetts. my first wayland experience was going not to loker for the day but the other of 3 elementary schools in the town of wayland. happy hollow. there i met four girls who i will always remain friendly with because of our instant child girlie connection. i don't know. anyway so i don't end up going to happy hollow but to loker, the "lame" elementary school. claypit was where all the northies went because the town of wayland was also divided into two: north wayland, and south wayland. oh by the way i lived in mattapan, massachusetts my whole life in high school my friends called it murderpan. it's pretty dangerous there, but when i was 10 we moved to wellington hill street still in mattapan but it just seemed lie another world away from what people think mattapan is like. i knew all my neighbors, and it was pretty boring the houses on my street were pretty nice actually, including my own. my family kind of upgraded our lifestyle when we moved there. from renting that 2 family house on river street to owning our own house i mean looking back on it now i think it was an upgrade. 

sorry to interrupt myself. but i'd just like to say that itunes forced it .99 cents to 1.29 what the fuck is that about, YOUR MAKING BILLIONS OF DOLLARS, you should be giving us a fucking break. are you trying to encourage people to steal music. YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING UP. YOU GUYS FORCED IT.

i'm in wilkesbury, pa right now with danielle at her school, sitting here on the computer

about to smoke a blunt in bobby's honor. 

tomorrow we're gonna go to some hyphie club, so that should be good.

i have my fake id so we'll be good to go.

finally got someone to buy my guitar even though i really don't want to sell it i honestly, 

have no choice.

i almost talked to my dad today, he has danielle's number so hopefully he'll call back.

if not i'll call him again tomorrow. i miss him, alot. he's the only person i have.

listening to m83 right now, which is making me smile.

i've been thinking alot about how happy i've been since i've left my house.

and i knwo i'm happier because i'm free, even though practically the whole time i've been gone i've been pretty broke. but i'm not gonna let the fact that i'm broke depress me, my day it's not worth it.

it's not worth it to upset myself or anyone else with it, everything WILL workout. i just have to be a whole other level of strong at this point.

drake is gonna be in NY on the 17&18th i think, i know def. the 18th and i will def. be there to see him. 

IT HAS TO BE DONE.

this maserati song reminds me of friday night lights for some reason.

oooohhh and around 7 we're going to see adventureland so i'm pretty pumped for that.

things to do:

wait for callback.

email KSM staffing again.

wait for background check/CORI to go through.

tattoo.

figuring out school in the summer&september.

wait for dad to callback.

when i get back to boston things i must deal with:

gammy.

the family!

mail at 112.

school.school.school.

work.work.work.

oh & btw we found the apartment, it's a 2 bedroom condo across from carney hospital like,

two seconds away from ashmont. newly renovated, walk in closets. probably gonna be from 1100-1400/month.

i've been wishing&hoping for a love.

i just want that one boy.