weellll i woke up a couple hours ago.pretty happy, i think i'm gonna start typing the book on the computer.
i don't know i think it's a bit soon.
i feel like if i start typing it i'm gonna lose something.
when i'm writing it's strraight from my mind to the paper, when i'm typing i stop
and think. the keyboard ends up being the middle man.
i dunno, maybe i'm tweakin.
today is tuesday the office comes on tonight.
wow so this whole family continues to try and start shit with me,
my aunt's here. and i'm trying not to let it bother me. first off she grabs the comforter off the couch and proceeds to throw it on the ground.
then yells at me when the kids start giving each other chariot rides with that same comforter that SHE placed on the floor.
i told her, you were the one who threw the comforter on the floor, while i fold it up.
here's the facebook message i receieved from my cousin preditta:
Hello Brittany
I wondered why u didn't make it to your granmma's 80th bday party. That wasn't cool! I actually think it was selfish. I know u have issues with ur mom but this was more important especially since u are staying in her house when she isn't supposed to have anyone doing that. People have said that u are ungrateful. I didn't think so but now I wonder. I do think that u need to evaluate the decisions u are making and their long term impact.
I say all this to say I am really disappointed in you not that it matters. I hope in time whatever u are going through will end and you figure things out. If you can call me if u want but if not I understand (well I don't but clinically it makes sense, sorry I am a therapist by trade).
On a side not I want to tell u once gramma goes to honduras in july u won't be able to stay at her place. Sorry to tell u this way but I lost ur number.
I wondered why u didn't make it to your granmma's 80th bday party. That wasn't cool! I actually think it was selfish. I know u have issues with ur mom but this was more important especially since u are staying in her house when she isn't supposed to have anyone doing that. People have said that u are ungrateful. I didn't think so but now I wonder. I do think that u need to evaluate the decisions u are making and their long term impact.
I say all this to say I am really disappointed in you not that it matters. I hope in time whatever u are going through will end and you figure things out. If you can call me if u want but if not I understand (well I don't but clinically it makes sense, sorry I am a therapist by trade).
On a side not I want to tell u once gramma goes to honduras in july u won't be able to stay at her place. Sorry to tell u this way but I lost ur number.
Preditta
After i read it i laughed, but that's not the point. One, I live with my grandma so I saw her on her birthday and let her a week before that I would not be able to attend her birthday party, so it was no surprise to her that i wasn't there. Two, her birthday party was at my mother's house. Why would i go there right now, I'm not ready and did not feel that my mother, nor the rest of my family would've been able to make it through the whole night without and issue/argument starting. If they tell you otherwise they're liars, and are lying. I know them, and myself and at least I'm being honest in saying that. And, if it wasn't my mother that started with me, it would've been one of my big mouth aunts, or cousins.
i've been reading tales of ordinary madness even though i still haven't finished pulp though i'm about 40 pages away from being done. bukowski, is definitely inspiration. i talked to sisco today.
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yungfrisko (11:46:56 AM) : i might be going on a 4-6 state tour.
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eFFiNxDoRk (11:51:53 AM) : working, making money, and writing my book/ movie hopefully it'll be finished by the end the summer. that's the goal.
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eFFiNxDoRk (11:53:18 AM) : it's a dirty drama/comedy/bromance selfwritten self edited autobiography haha
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eFFiNxDoRk (11:57:47 AM) : i mean i've decided that writing is what i want to do. this book is gonna make or break me so i mean i'm putting everything i have into it. but i dunno i feel like it's what i was meant to do.
yungfrisko (11:58:39 AM) : have you been writing?
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eFFiNxDoRk (12:00:18 PM) : everyday
yungfrisko (12:00:32 PM) : whats the book about?
eFFiNxDoRk (12:03:05 PM) : everything, metco, my parents, being a runaway, stealing, depression, high school, drugs, fame, honduras, boys, sex, music, the comic strip, the list goes on of things that are discussed.
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yungfrisko (12:16:24 PM) : im havin a partyfor my 21st
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yungfrisko (12:18:18 PM) : the party is on the 30th
eFFiNxDoRk (12:18:21 PM) : ok
yungfrisko signed off at 12:20:58 PM.
i gotta go my computer is still broken i suppose.
fuck everyone.
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