i don't stunt, i stunt hard and if the food ain't on the stove i hunt for it.

tomorrow is monday. today was mother's day.

i called eunice, and wished her a happy mother's day.

that was all i really had to say.

i can't really describe the relationship i have with my mom right now. 

it's pretty nonexistent.

so i left my house about a month and half ago. and have barely talked to her since then. 

i called her yesterday, wished her a happy mother's day and went on with my life. 

the doctor recommends that i create a new family for myself, he say sometimes people have to do that and i agree. it just kind of sucks because i look at the people around me and they have their families, and though i'm sure they have problems like all families do, they function, they work even in their own dysfunction. that's what i want, but i know that with my family it's only scrutiny, just constant fucking criticism as if these bitches are perfect. because honestly, if i let these bitches know they could all be shutup, but that's probably super disrespectful and i just don't want to deal with the drama, which is why once again there was a mother's day brunch at my aunt's house and i respectfully chose not to attend. 

janice should be here soon with my uncle's food card. i'm pretty hungry and i can get free food with that so i'm pumped. lmfao.

g's coming home today.

p.s. if you haven't already peeped that video of drake doing the stanky leg, you must. 

it made me shit my pants laughing.

P.S. REAL TALK we are going to see drake on the 20th in delaware, and i'm pumped. it's gonna be a budmusicalalcoholfestival of joy my friends. believe that. no joke. being serious because first we were gonna see him in NY, but didn't, then in RI, but didn't and NOW finally DEFINITELY going to see him in delaware, i just have to see my boy before he blows up.

yesterday was pretty fucking funny. some kids, no names, we're baked and thought of an idea.

hey we should chill outside an ATM and wait for someone to leave and use this bbgun to rob them. lmfao. from there, we just went more and more in depth of how we'd plan to exercise this plan of a rob and run. the person changed from innocent civilian to a budman, a really stupid budman. but both budman's were out of contact so the idea has been postponed  until further notice. sorry for the buzzkill kids. lmao.

eFFiNxDoRk (8:24:09 AM): lj;lkj;kl

ohwadupimgaby (8:24:42 AM): wat bitch ?

ohwadupimgaby (8:24:43 AM): lmao

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:00 AM): hahaha lmao jjust woke up saying good morning

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:27 AM): soooooo this lenard kid. he's your booski or what

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:28 AM): hahahha

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:32 AM): lmao

ohwadupimgaby (8:25:45 AM): lmaaaooo hell yeah

ohwadupimgaby (8:25:50 AM): thats my baby

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:53 AM): aight aight

eFFiNxDoRk (8:25:56 AM): hahaah

ohwadupimgaby (8:26:06 AM): lolllllloll

eFFiNxDoRk (8:26:08 AM): where you at?

ohwadupimgaby (8:26:17 AM): in my bed nigga!!!!

eFFiNxDoRk (8:26:23 AM): aHAHAHHAHAHA'

eFFiNxDoRk (8:26:33 AM): damn b my bad

eFFiNxDoRk (8:26:35 AM): ahahha

ohwadupimgaby (8:26:52 AM): lmaaao

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:11 AM): evverybodys hittin me up like it aint maddd early n shit!

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:11 AM): smh

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:18 AM): nards like WAKE UP

eFFiNxDoRk (8:27:19 AM): hahahahahahah

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:21 AM): im like Y

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:31 AM): and hes like cuz im up1

ohwadupimgaby (8:27:47 AM): im like nigga please bye!

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:00 AM): hahah true yall shoukd go take a walk toigother or something

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:03 AM): hahhaa

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:10 AM): oop nvm

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:15 AM): haajah

ohwadupimgaby (8:28:37 AM): loll naaah. he has an interview so hes mad hype

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:49 AM): yeah i just peepedf in his status

eFFiNxDoRk (8:28:51 AM): hahahaha

ohwadupimgaby (8:29:15 AM): lmaaaooo

eFFiNxDoRk (8:29:29 AM): hahahahha

ohwadupimgaby (8:30:12 AM): y ru up creep

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:12 AM): so what's good is this nigga comin to boston so i can give him the third degree

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:14 AM): hahahahhaa

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:29 AM): because facebook makes you creepy.

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:31 AM): i sear

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:32 AM): hahha

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:34 AM): swear*

ohwadupimgaby (8:30:42 AM): llmaao oh hes comin!!  i already told him!

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:48 AM): hahhah trueeee

eFFiNxDoRk (8:30:50 AM): i'm puimpeed

ohwadupimgaby (8:31:00 AM): i was like uhh my friends r crazy

ohwadupimgaby (8:31:13 AM): my moms meeting him today soo nervous

eFFiNxDoRk (8:31:43 AM): ahahhah truee she'll like him she's bee like ohhh lenard hahahahhaha

eFFiNxDoRk (8:31:45 AM): hahhaha

eFFiNxDoRk (8:32:00 AM): do you want somethiong to eat,

eFFiNxDoRk (8:32:02 AM): some shit.

eFFiNxDoRk (8:32:03 AM): hahahah

ohwadupimgaby (8:32:08 AM): hahaah i hope sooo

ohwadupimgaby (8:32:09 AM): oh maaannn

eFFiNxDoRk (8:32:20 AM): wat

ohwadupimgaby (8:32:37 AM): nothin

ohwadupimgaby (8:32:54 AM): she said if she likes him he can come stay with us

eFFiNxDoRk (8:33:27 AM): oooooo. allie says wasddup i'm at her house sjhe also said wheneva you wanna bang lett her know

eFFiNxDoRk (8:33:41 AM): hahahaha jp

eFFiNxDoRk (8:33:49 AM): jk*

ohwadupimgaby (8:33:50 AM): waaat

eFFiNxDoRk (8:33:59 AM): hahah nothing

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:02 AM): ohh

eFFiNxDoRk (8:34:05 AM): that nice of your mom

eFFiNxDoRk (8:34:14 AM): anmdsfdd great for youuu

eFFiNxDoRk (8:34:20 AM): ujmmm penisssss

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:34 AM): OMG BRITTANY

eFFiNxDoRk (8:34:41 AM): hahahaha]

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:46 AM): the. dick. is. amazing.

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:47 AM): amazing

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:50 AM): brilliant

ohwadupimgaby (8:34:56 AM): CRAZY

ohwadupimgaby (8:35:04 AM): shiiiitttttt

ohwadupimgaby (8:35:05 AM): omg

eFFiNxDoRk (8:35:23 AM): wow congrat my friend are your reyes rolling in the back of yoyr head

eFFiNxDoRk (8:35:24 AM): hahah

ohwadupimgaby (8:35:42 AM): lmao they WERE

ohwadupimgaby (8:36:01 AM): but dont worry ill tell u all that wen i see you

eFFiNxDoRk (8:36:07 AM): hahahah k

eFFiNxDoRk (8:36:19 AM): i'll hit you up later skank

ohwadupimgaby (8:36:42 AM): alright

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Auto Response from eFFiNxDoRk (8:36:42 AM): the best conversation i've ever had:

so you spit on the nigga?
i heard you was humpin that nigga like you was a dog.
you can just go around humpin' niggas.









sorry for spitting on you kenny.


iwasn't trying to say nothing but i was mad shocked.

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ohwadupimgaby (8:36:48 AM): ciao ima go back to sleep

ohwadupimgaby (8:37:00 AM): OM.FG I HATE YOUU

ohwadupimgaby (8:37:05 AM): LMAAAAOOOOOOOOOOO

eFFiNxDoRk (8:37:06 AM): sorry i had to remind you of this convo

eFFiNxDoRk (8:37:12 AM): hahahahah

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ohwadupimgaby went away at 10:01:52 AM.

our away messages preceded as follows:

sleeppppp miss you g.

back to sleep. miss you b !

so i've been twittering recently and i still don't know how i feel about it, but it's 10:11 

and i told my g ma i'd be outta here by 11, so it's time to start getting ready snatches.

i'm out. we'll chat later.

well you've got the perfect disguise and you're looking ok

weellll i woke up a couple hours ago.

pretty happy, i think i'm gonna start typing the book on the computer. 

i don't know i think it's a bit soon. 

i feel like if i start typing it i'm gonna lose something. 

when i'm writing it's strraight from my mind to the paper, when i'm typing i stop 

and think. the keyboard ends up being the middle man.

i dunno, maybe i'm tweakin. 

today is tuesday the office comes on tonight.

wow so this whole family continues to try and start shit with me, 

my aunt's here. and i'm trying not to let it bother me. first off she grabs the comforter off the couch and proceeds to throw it on the ground. 

then yells at me when the kids start giving each other chariot rides with that same comforter that SHE placed on the floor. 

i told her, you were the one who threw the comforter on the floor, while i fold it up.

here's the facebook message i receieved from my cousin preditta:

Hello Brittany

I wondered why u didn't make it to your granmma's 80th bday party. That wasn't cool! I actually think it was selfish. I know u have issues with ur mom but this was more important especially since u are staying in her house when she isn't supposed to have anyone doing that. People have said that u are ungrateful. I didn't think so but now I wonder. I do think that u need to evaluate the decisions u are making and their long term impact. 

I say all this to say I am really disappointed in you not that it matters. I hope in time whatever u are going through will end and you figure things out. If you can call me if u want but if not I understand (well I don't but clinically it makes sense, sorry I am a therapist by trade). 

On a side not I want to tell u once gramma goes to honduras in july u won't be able to stay at her place. Sorry to tell u this way but I lost ur number. 

Preditta

After i read it i laughed, but that's not the point. One, I live with my grandma so I saw her on her birthday and let her a week before that I would not be able to attend her birthday party, so it was no surprise to her that i wasn't there. Two, her birthday party was at my mother's house. Why would i go there right now, I'm not ready and did not feel that my mother, nor the rest of my family would've been able to make it through the whole night without and issue/argument starting. If they tell you otherwise they're liars, and are lying. I know them, and myself and at least I'm being honest in saying that. And, if it wasn't my mother that started with me, it would've been one of my big mouth aunts, or cousins.

i've been reading tales of ordinary madness even though i still haven't finished pulp though i'm about 40 pages away from being done. bukowski, is definitely inspiration. i talked to sisco today.

yungfrisko (11:43:52 AM): HEY!!!

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Auto Response from eFFiNxDoRk (11:43:53 AM): take my breath away.

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eFFiNxDoRk (11:43:56 AM): yo

eFFiNxDoRk (11:43:59 AM): hahah

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:00 AM): what's up

yungfrisko (11:44:07 AM): HAPPY BDAY!!!

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:16 AM): oh my

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:19 AM): thank youuuuu

yungfrisko (11:44:31 AM): how old are you now?

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:34 AM): 19

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:35 AM): haha

yungfrisko (11:44:37 AM): 40 something?

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:39 AM): hhahahhaah

eFFiNxDoRk (11:44:51 AM): what are you up to?

yungfrisko (11:45:01 AM): at the office

eFFiNxDoRk (11:45:07 AM): mmmmmmmmm true

yungfrisko (11:45:09 AM): sending music to the blogs

eFFiNxDoRk (11:45:13 AM): truee

eFFiNxDoRk (11:45:26 AM): i really like your blog.

yungfrisko (11:45:39 AM): Why thank you.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:45:46 AM): hahah your welcome.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:45:57 AM): sooooo

eFFiNxDoRk (11:46:02 AM): what are you up to this summer.

yungfrisko (11:46:56 AM): i might be going on a 4-6 state tour.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:47:04 AM): oooo really

yungfrisko (11:47:11 AM): its not official yet. but i might be.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:47:18 AM): which states are you thinking of

yungfrisko (11:49:25 AM): ny, ohio, gorgia,illinois

eFFiNxDoRk (11:49:33 AM): okkk okkk

eFFiNxDoRk (11:49:44 AM): well i think you should do it.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:49:45 AM): hhhaha

eFFiNxDoRk (11:49:48 AM): that's just my opinion

yungfrisko (11:50:12 AM): if everything goes right i def will.

eFFiNxDoRk (11:50:16 AM): tur

eFFiNxDoRk (11:50:17 AM): e

yungfrisko (11:50:42 AM): Sup with you? what your summer looking like?

eFFiNxDoRk (11:51:53 AM): working, making money, and writing my book/ movie hopefully it'll be finished by the end the summer. that's the goal.

yungfrisko (11:52:11 AM): ooo i like movies.

yungfrisko (11:52:16 AM): what kind?

eFFiNxDoRk (11:52:19 AM): hahah you'll like this one alot

eFFiNxDoRk (11:53:18 AM): it's a dirty drama/comedy/bromance selfwritten self edited autobiography haha

eFFiNxDoRk (11:54:37 AM): a better juno, without the pregnancy just the style of the movie

eFFiNxDoRk (11:54:37 AM): haha

yungfrisko (11:55:32 AM): lol

yungfrisko (11:55:49 AM): it'll be a fair portrayal im sure

eFFiNxDoRk (11:55:56 AM): oh it will

eFFiNxDoRk (11:55:56 AM): hahah

eFFiNxDoRk (11:57:47 AM): i mean i've decided that writing is what i want to do. this book is gonna make or break me so i mean i'm putting everything i have into it. but i dunno i feel like it's what i was meant to do.

yungfrisko (11:58:39 AM): have you been writing?

eFFiNxDoRk (12:00:15 PM): yeah

eFFiNxDoRk (12:00:18 PM): everyday

yungfrisko (12:00:32 PM): whats the book about?

eFFiNxDoRk (12:03:05 PM): everything, metco, my parents, being a runaway, stealing, depression, high school, drugs, fame, honduras, boys, sex, music,  the comic strip, the list goes on of things that are discussed.

yungfrisko (12:03:39 PM): Can i help?

eFFiNxDoRk (12:03:47 PM): yes yes if you'd like

yungfrisko (12:04:21 PM): i dont know how i could, but if theres any way i could, let me know.

eFFiNxDoRk (12:04:29 PM): i will

eFFiNxDoRk (12:04:31 PM): i will

eFFiNxDoRk (12:05:05 PM): promo hello, help the vision, i can send you pieces of it once i start to type it up you can be my honest opinion.

eFFiNxDoRk (12:05:11 PM): that would be a really big help

yungfrisko (12:06:23 PM): ight bet.

yungfrisko (12:06:40 PM): save my email address (frskpurple@gmail.com)

eFFiNxDoRk (12:06:48 PM): ok

yungfrisko (12:16:09 PM): one more thing

eFFiNxDoRk (12:16:12 PM): yeah

yungfrisko (12:16:24 PM): im havin a partyfor my 21st

yungfrisko (12:16:31 PM): at the end of this month

eFFiNxDoRk (12:16:33 PM): awwwwww

eFFiNxDoRk (12:16:36 PM): yay1!!!1

eFFiNxDoRk (12:16:38 PM): i'll be ther

eFFiNxDoRk (12:17:10 PM): tell me the date

eFFiNxDoRk (12:17:11 PM): oooo

eFFiNxDoRk (12:17:13 PM): i'm so excited

eFFiNxDoRk (12:17:14 PM): haha

yungfrisko (12:18:18 PM): the party is on the 30th

eFFiNxDoRk (12:18:21 PM): ok

yungfrisko signed off at 12:20:58 PM.

i gotta go my computer is still broken i suppose.

fuck everyone.